To My Firstborn I've Paid Less Attention To
So this realization comes after watching a clip. It has been a normal scenario to pay attention to the youngest. And while the youngest is growing, the firstborn gets less. While I read that over and over, it's gotten me to tears. Knowing that you've been there fending off by yourself when we can't stand by you all the time. The time less spent as we try to make ends meet. And when we do manage to have time, it's been divided and sometimes less was given to you.
Do know that we love you so much and we'll do everything in our power for you. Not just your brothers and sisters. I know it's been hard as you mature more quickly and as we see less of your childish traits. With words saying that you wanted to spend more time with us as well.
God, how I prayed to have a better life to offer you with more time to spend. But it's been one way or another and I've been praying for a break ever since. I really don't know what I'm trying to get here. Just wanting to vent out. We're here. But it's like we're not. Yet one thing's for sure, we love you.